Restless today. Means I'm tired but also the deeper feeling for me is that I'm on the cusp of something new, another change. I'm eager to expand my life and extend my reach... get outside of the confines of my life the way that it has been...again. A constant growth process of bringing my two lives together - the one I've been living and the one in my dreams. Paulo Coelho speaks of this, of course...
From the "Manual of the Warrior of Light":
Sometimes the warrior feels as if he were living two lives at once.
In one of them he is obliged to do all the things he does not want to do and to fight for ideas in which he does not believe. But there is another life, and he discovers it in his dreams, in his reading and in his encounters with people who share his ideas.
The warrior allows his two lives to draw near. 'There is a bridge that links what I do with what I would like to do,' he thinks. Slowly, his dreams take over his everyday life, and then he realises that he is ready for the thing he always wanted.
Then all that is needed is a little daring, and his two lives become one.
Here I am at the edge of the cliff again.
